argh. I hate this moment.
I’m at the moment in a project where everything is coming together and I may really be onto something; close to finishing a mini-project and understanding what I’m trying to do.
But I know as much as it may take me five minutes to figure out the missing piece, it may also take me till 3 AM to give up on it; even if I figure it out, the temptation to fine tune my work will keep me going long after the current stumbling block, and I know I’ll keep going until it’s perfect or i’m too tired to think (usually the former)
But it’d be so cool when it’s done – probably not to you, but to me, for being able to accomplish the project (even though it’s not anything generally neat and perhaps not even something people of this website will see), it’ll feel great to know that I can do it.
But by feeling great now – assuming I get that far – I know I’m trading feeling dead tommorow, and tommorow’s going to be a long long day as it is. And it’s not like the weekend is the 48 hours of sleep I wouldn’t mind it to be; gotta a lot to catch up from being home all of 3 weekdays this month, besides other obligations.
But I know my moments to work on things like this are fleeting at best – should I really waste one I know I have?
argh
(thank the lord I don’t gamble.)
(tilt was not nearly as good this week.)